She hates love.

I've just finished reading Memoirs of a Geisha. The book is so much better than the movie, it includes much more events and stuff like that. A very good book, i would say. :) Stats is such a fucking module. Sweet called me in the early evening, & she kinda like stats (to a certain extent). Argh, if only she dint have exams herself, that smart girl could teach me. I'v always wondered how she managed to get good grades for a.maths in the past. Now, stats means nothing more to me than advanced a.maths. AHH!!

Im exhausted, I just wanna sleep.

Every step i take,
just brings me deeper & deeper.

Saturday, February 25

Dinner yesterday was so so so so so good! Its a damn great reward for me for mugging like hell the past week, altho the treat from my dad wasnt really meant for me.

& my great grandma came to visit us again. Sighs, it is such an unfortunate event that i almost went bonkers thinking I would never finish memorising my notes. She talked so loudly in a shrilly voice it was impossible to shut out her voice even though i closed the room door. I was like so traumatised by my great grandma's visit that i had a nightmare on thurs! I dreamt that all my grandma's relatives came over and freaky but true enough, 2 grandaunts from US and M'sia came over the next day. My sister could almost shoot me for my dream coming true.

But to look at it positively, I managed to (hopefully) survive my exam and had a sumptous dinner, all thanks to my grandaunt from US! So we had lobster cold plate, sharks fin, beijing roasted duck, abalone & veg, prawns yadayada. & lastly, honeydew sago for dessert! Cheers. My sis and I went mad seeing the duck okayes, its OUR FAVE. But this is all like YESTERDAY. Now im super pathetic, waiting for my dad to buy horfun for me for dinner.

Damn, I've been gorging myself so much with food now that im so overstressed. I should stop this eating disorder thing.

Friday, February 24

I must have been really bored when i was studying last week.

From this..

to this.

I've been so fucken stressing myself out.

Thursday, February 23

Oh man, i dont even wanna talk bout econs. Hopefully i'll get good grades for it. DAMN, its the first time i've studied so hard for a exam. Slept at 4+ am and woke up at 10am in the morning. So damn shagged yesterday. Yvonne's right, its even worse than the big O's.

I never seem to get a break from stuying, do I? Right now, im trying to squeeze all those management behaviour and business what-nots, into my memory & get them to stay in there. Im scared, i really am. My memory's failing me. I know it.

Till then, I'll love.

Tuesday, February 21

Im so screwed 'cos i totally dont understand what my econs notes are saying.

Accounts is okayes. I made one small mistake altho its not confirmed yet. But i guess im wrong cos everyone tells me that. I do hope i get an A though. *prays hard. Now all thats on my mind will be econs and it sucks. But I just cant understand why and how my sis majors in econs. Obviously she cant teach me now since shes went off to night safari. Save me, anyone.

Sunday, February 19

Oh man. Accounts is like tomorrow, and i feel like im gonna die. I need to concentrate. CONCENTRATE on my books.

Online shopping and whatever tv shows, shall wait till my exams are over. Damn. :(

Thursday, February 16

Alrighty. I went to Kbox for the first time today. I really wanted to study but was persuaded to go there and have fun for the "last" time. Obviously, this "last" time has been going on for ages since Sunday, I really wonder when is the last time going to be. Now, I really gotta get back to serious work and do my accounts '04/'05. uh-uh. I wish now is the time to play. PLAYTIME!

Cant wait for all my online purchases to be shipped over. (: Great!

Wednesday, February 15

Loves, Valentines day was great! flowers, love, hugs & kisses. What more can u ask for. Didnt make any reservations this year so we ended up eating at Swensens. Was kinda glad he dint wanna eat the Valentine set. So we did ala carte instead & i LOVELOVELOVE the seafood mushroom chowder. (or whatever u call it) Delicious. My heels are torturing me as usual, argh. & i decided to search for my perfect heels which doesnt hurt.

Half of '07 went to Balcony today. Nice place, not so nice service attitude. Not bad, but not that nice. I love their "swings". Cool. Alrighty, now im happy and i LOVE JOANNE!! But she is so evil cans. Haha. Cant top looking at shoes and i know shes gonna spend again. I'll try to control myself though. Almost bought a necklace online half an hour ago, but was stopped 'cos it ran out of stock. good thing. :)

Studied for accounts today with some peeps at compass point. Argh, which reminds me i really should stop going to town & start studying. & i just realised that my promise "I shall stop going to town temporarily" is broken. & yes, im going dowm tomorrow again.

I miss sweet. She called me yesterday and thats when i realised I've been so caught up in my busy life that I havent met up with them for so long. In the end, shes still the one who understands me the most. <3

Negative thoughts of someone that pisses me off. But u just gotta accept that this world comes with hypocritism.

Monday, February 13

I cant believe him! my god. Whats wrong with him!? Im sick of quarrelling with him over that fugly bitch.

Im pissed. Thats it. Period.

Sunday, February 12

I met the dress of my dreams today. But its such a pity the size doesnt fit me.

I even had to hold it up so it doesnt fall off. AHHHH!! this sucks.

Saturday, February 11

I wish u can shoot me dead right now. Someone please do it.

Friday, February 10

I watched the raindrops today,

And I wished it were snow instead.

For the cold winter night,

warms my heart more than this.

Today seems like an impt day. The announcing 'O levels results, the 10 million TOTO, the last day of dba/1b/07 schooling together officially. & I dont know when my locker is gonna be taken back. AHH! This is driving me mad, in addition to my headache which never seemed to get better. But but, i just received confirmation for my online purchase this morning. Much thanks and loves to yingling. : )

Thursday, February 9

I finally caught the film, "Memoirs of a geisha" yesterday. But i watched it at some secluded place which is Sun plaza. I tell you, the cinema freaked me out totally!

First, its like so bloody dark i dint even know if we were sitting in the correct row. Kaiying & i tried using the only source of light from our handphones to shine, but its TOTALLY useless. Second, the cinema's bloody empty. Without the six of us - ziying, yunyun, kaiying, me, yongqi, binghan, i think thres only 3 or 4 peeps in there. Third, There are like mirrors on the wall of the cinema. Not really normal mirrors and they arent exactly huge, it kinda slightly distorts the reflection. But it just seems weird. Okayes, so i concluded that i shant watch there anymore. But i loved the movie. Better than i expected cos everyone were saying how sucky it was. A geisha, is truly elegant to me.

Kelvin, Hin han & Yongqi came over yesterday after the movie. Played mahjong at my house & kel lost AGAIN. Serously, like again. Lose $3.50 more and it will be 100 bucks he lost since CNY. Thats worth alot, think of the money he could have done. STill, that 10 million TOTO thing is driving my class mad. Kel thinks he will get it. Haha. Maybe he will. Maybe. Yongqi was the sole winner last night, rich girl.

Last day of school tomorrow, & it feels weird. Very weird. The phrase "time really flies" is just so apt. I think i'll miss all my lessons and tutors/lecturers. This is mad. I'll even miss econs, music, and itab. Fuck. I do need a time machine.

Because silly girl, things will always change. Whether u like it or not.

Tuesday, February 7

It doesnt feel good today, knowing that it will be the last formal presentation with my class. Formal or not, this is the last presentation. & im back to the topic again on splitting of classes.

Im not being over-whiny bout this matter. Its just that how often do u come across a class of people that u can get along well with. In fact, everyone is quite close to one another. Within a mere 9 months or so, we have bonded so well together. We've gone on shopping trips, gambling at each other's houses, lunched together, crapped, bitched & so on. -sighs. Heaven makes fool of people. I do hope i get nice classmates next year, but i doubt so after seeing the people in my lecture.

& i will still remember my classmates every so clearly.
I do love the 3 of ém dearly. - eileen, yingling, yongqi
plusplus, joanne will always be the girl who wishes to go kbox & balcony with me.
all those dumb jokes the whole class shared. Never forgotten.

Aw. I hate going through all these again.

Sunday, February 5

Doodlings by missysan. This is what i have been doing for a 1 hour lecture.

I've decided to temporarily stop going to town. Its really boring me that much I went down to tampines mall yesterday. Nothing much there though, but at least we walked around the unfamiliar shops. Much happiness felt yesterday. <3>

My new year spent in pictures. More to come.

Friday, February 3

Ohmygod. I think im losing it.
human nature puts me off.

Wednesday, February 1

F U C K !

Im officially in love.

with a pair of wedges & heels. Shoes. my love, my current obsessions.